Doubt Will Always Overtake Love In Your Heart

March 7, 2017

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  Hi DJ Chloe,

  I’m an avid fan of your station. But I had no idea that I will be sending you this letter.

  Just call me RomeoMikeLima. I am separated for 12 years with two kids.

  I have a girlfriend and she knows everything about me and she accepted me for who I am. I didn’t keep any secrets to her. She was born with silver spoon, habang ako eh laki sa hirap pero sa pagpupunyagi ng mga magulang ko and me being a working-student, I managed to finish my marketing degree. Going back, my girlfriend is having a heart problem and mas nag-agrevate nu’ng umalis ako to work abroad. Her mom doesn’t like me but she fights for me and I can say that she loves me so well and parang “you and I against the world” ang mga pangyayari. She fights for our relationship to the extent na nakikipagmatigasan siya sa mom niya because she wants her mom to understand how we love each other.

  As for me, pinatunayan ko kung gaano kahalaga at kung gaano ko kamahal ang anak nila. I did my fair share, I was sending her three-quarters of my salary for her medication. For me it’s nothing kasi ang pinakamahalaga sa akin ay ang kaligtasan niya and to prove that I will do everything for her. Willing to sacrifice, willing to give it all. It was great at naintindihan kami ng mom niya na no matter what she does, no one will tear us apart. DJ Chloe, siya ang mundo ko. Sa kanya umiikot ang mga pangarap ko, hindi ko kakayanin kung mawawala siya.

  But recently, she seldom communicates with me. Parang lumamig, though she told me that it doesn’t mean na hindi na ganun kadalas ang pag-uusap namin eh hindi nangangahulugan na hindi na niya ako mahal.
  Fate is cruel, as I lost my job abroad due to certain things and everything follows, my self-esteem, my self-confidence, because I worried about our dreams.

  One time, naligaw ako sa music application and I saw her so active there and I have no idea as she kept it secret to me. She was so active and even communicating with other members.  And since I have no idea about it, a poisonous malice ran to my mind as she exchanged  “I love you’s”. When I confronted her, she told me that this is the reason why she doesn’t want me to get involve in her music world. She told me that they are just friends to her though one is calling her girlfriend, which means, according to her is “good friend” and he calls the guy “BF”, which means “best friend.” She broke up with me because she told me that I’ve hurt her. And now i feel so depressed, so down that I don’t even know what hits me on my head. Now that I’m in other country and I can’t focus, she told me, we have to start again as friends. I can’t barely breath and can’t even focus on my work here. Because no matter what my mind thinks of, my heart really feels the pain. I love her so much and still living our dreams. As of now we keep on chatting, exchanging “I miss you” but alam ko na ‘di na gaya ng dati. DJ Chloe, what should I do? Because I really had no idea that what I just discovered in a music app will tear us apart, which is so shallow to what we have been through.

  Sincerely,

  RomeoMikeLima

   

  Hi RML,

  The only thing that’s constant in this world is change, ‘di ba?

  She was born with a silver spoon, she’s not yet your wife, why then are you sustaining her medications? Her parents/family can afford it, I’m sure, if she was born with a silver spoon.
  Three-quarters of your salary should be to your children, whether they are with you or with their mother. :)  If not, three at least two-quarters will do.

  The music app probably is therapeutic to her,  kaya lang, duda ka that something is going on there, to her and someone else.

  Well, she probably found someone with the same frequency as her. It is unfair, yes it is,  but what can you do if you found someone like her who isn’t as loyal like you?

  If she cannot give you the same love and loyalty, and you are tormented day and night, then it’s time for you to re-asses your own priorities in life.

  You have your kids too. You will also retire and  nothing is certain in life. If you love her, then…endure.

  

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