Always Choose What Is Right And Not What Makes You Happy

January 5, 2018

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  Hi DJ Chloe,

  Good day! I just wanna share my story. Sana po kapulutan ng aral. Please hide my identity. Yes, I’m married, we have kids. Never would I imagine na mgkakaron ako ng affair with an old friend. Coz I am always tagged as mabait at masunurin ng parents at in-laws ko. ‘Til that day came. We started chatting and I committed sin that lasted for four years. Nu’ng una, friends with benefits kami because we both are married. Masaya kasi magkasundo kami. We can talk about almost all topics. Told myself na siya soulmate ko. Opposite kasi siya ng husband ko. Although laging present ang guilt feeling after magkita. Until ‘yung friends with benefits nauwi sa love. After two years nagdecide siya na piliin ako over her wife, hindi ako pumayag. I know the feeling of being abandoned. I came from a broken family. They have kids as well, hindi kaya ng konsensya ko. From then on kinwestiyon niya na love ko for him.

  Years passed, he planned our living away from his fam “ulit.” This time with my approval. I love him, yes, pero hindi ko pala talaga kaya. May house na ready for us, he even had a savings sa pagsisimula namin. Tinitignan ko pa lang mga anak ko hindi ko kaya masira future nila. Many times, hindi ako makaharap kay Lord, nahihiya na ko magsorry and commit the same sin. There were even many times we tried to end na kasi sabi niya wala ding pupuntahan. I have my limitations sa kanya, siya all out. Pero marupok kami, we missed being each other. Again, guilt feeling. My husband trusted me so much kasi alam niya im not capable of doing that. Realization comes, tagal ‘no? This has to stop hindi pwdeng habang buhay nmin sila niloloko.

  Kasi in every sin we make may parusa, so eto na ramdam na namin palo ni Lord. Problems, money, finances, fights, anger, peace of my mind, wala. I even had a depression. Nawalan ako ng gana mabuhay, gusto ko ng sumuko. I felt my life is useless. There’s no sense of living. ‘Yung dating masaya, napalitan ng sandamakmak na problema, away, at galit. We both decided to end that sinful living. Ang hirap nu’ng una kasi marami ng nakasanayan but we have to discipline ourselves. It should start with the way we think. Our thoughts are the application of our actions eh. He insists na bantayan ako to make sure na hindi na mauulit sa iba ‘yung naging sa’min. But ‘di ako pumayag. Focus ka sa family mo, I’ll do the same. This life is not mine anymore this time. I’ll do what’s pleasing to God. He thanks me nga pla for not choosing to live with him for family sake. If you’re on the same situation I’m once in. Leave. It’s not too late to change.

  Liz

  Hi Liz,

  Thank you for sharing your story with us, I am so sure merong maliliwanagan sa mga sinabi mo.

  Continue doing what is right.

  

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