Chloe’s Inbox: “Nakakapagod mapagod pero hindi pwedeng sumuko”

March 9, 2022

• Hi DJ Chloe,

  Please hide my identity. I am 29 years old, single and currently working in a BPO company in Makati and is living in Antipolo (working onsite). I’ve been working here for 8 months. Last December, I thought last day ko na sa mundo gawa ng inatake ako ng acid reflux plus nerbiyos while on my way home from work.
  From that day, halos araw-araw na ko nakakaranas ng hirap sa paghinga. I have myself checked by a doctor and the diagnosis is Dyspepsia. February 2, 2022 when my brother-in-law passed away due to cardiac arrest, leaving his wife and 16 months old baby. I don’t want my nephew to grow without a father. I questioned God why him? He’s still young, he’s just 27 years old. I wanted to cry and shout that night, but no tears fell from eyes. After few hours ako naman ang isinugod sa hospital gawa ng nahihirapan ako huminga. I was diagnosed with Acute Gastritis Hypokalemia. Prior to this, I tested positive for Covid and was absent from work for a month (January). No work no pay as I don’t have leave credit. I’ve been suffering from depression for years and still grieving for the death of my father last 2018. I rarely share my problems with my family as I don’t want to add burden to them. I don’t want them to think that I am weak. Maybe I’m just tired of commuting everyday and it add up to the stress that I am feeling. I am sending money to my mom every cut off. If I resign, who will support my mom, my sister and her baby? I already used all of my savings and I rarely go to work given my condition. I pray to God every night, but I’m not quite sure if His listening. Maybe, I asked for too much, all I want is my family to be healthy, especially my mom and my siblings. Is it too much or maybe my faith for Him is not that strong? I’m trying to be strong for my love ones, but it’s hard to be happy when deep inside you’re broken and dying. Nakakapagod mapagod pero hindi pwedeng sumuko.

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