Let Go For Yourself

May 16, 2016

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  Dear DJ Chloe,

  Me and my boyfriend always listen to you! Lalo na pag out of town. I hope you’ll read this and write back some advice. Thank you so much. We’re living together for two and a half years now. We are happy, we have future plans and goals, and we were the happiest  when God gave us our bundle of joy this March. Pero nakunan po ako. He ‘s mother have cancer at ang naiwan na lang sa kanila ay mama at kapatid niya. May nakatira ding kamag-anak doon pero s’yempre iba ang parents. Dahil ang papa at kapatid nia ay nasa abroad. So pumayag naman ako na umuwi-uwi siya doon. Then this week nahuli ko siya na ka-chat ‘yung ex niya. Alam ko, DJ na mhal pa niya ‘yun kahit paano dahil ‘yun ang nabasa ko sa mga message niya. Actually, this is not the first time I caught him. Pero ang sabi niya hindi naman daw niya gusto balikan ‘yun at dahil ayaw na rin naman daw ng girl. Tapos, DJ, bigla na lang gusto na niya ng space. We talked. I gave him what he needed–space. Pero iba ata ang pagkakaalam niya ng ibig sabihin nu’n. Yes DJ, I read all his messages sa ex niya at sa iba niyang ex and random girls. At hindi lang ‘yun ang pinakamasakit na ginawa niya na hindi ko man lang naisip na kaya niyang gawin. Nakipagkita siya sa ex niya at may nangyari sa kanila. DJ, I was shocked! I was shaking the whole time I knew. It’s like I wanted to die that moment sobrang ang pain and it’s excruciating! I can’t breathe, I can’t talk. I confronted him and he admitted it. Pero hindi siya nagsisisi. Sobrang mahal na mahal ko siya, DJ, na kahit nagawa niya ‘yun I still want him back. Ilang beses ko pa rin siya kinausap. At sinabi ko pa rin sa kanya na ‘wag kami mag hiwalay. Stupid, I know. Pero alam niyo ba ‘yung feeling na mas masakit kung mawawala siya. It’s very clear to me kung ano ang dapat kong gawin to move on because I don’t deserve him. Pero I just can’t. DJ, I want to end this feeling for him pero ayaw ng puso ko. Bakit ganun? Hindi ko siya nakilala ng ganun. I want to let go pero iisipin ko pa lang I can’t stand the pain. DJ, these years sa kanya lang umikot ang mundo ko at sobrang mahal na mahal ko siya na kahit ilang beses pa niya gawin ‘yun mamahalin ko pa rin siya, crazy me, right? I don’t know, DJ. Please, I need your advice. This is Miss Stupid.

  His Miss Stupid,

  Funny how a man can change and mutate into something, right? Something that will shock the living daylights out of you. Well, what you are experiencing is something only love-stricken women goes through and this is because of the fact that you have loved him more than you love your own self. You’re loving him to a fault that even if it’s degrading on your part. Para kang globe, go lang ng go! My dear, how can you do this to yourself? You were not born in this world to be trampled on. Kita na ng dalawang mata namin na sa’yo mahal mo pa rin? Anong meron diyan? Ano man ang meron diyan meron din ang iba, much better pa! Him asking for space means only one thing. He wants out! And the more you cling and try harder to not let him go, the more you will lose respect for yourself. Letting go is hard but holding on is sometimes harder. Please love yourself. You only have one life to live, don’t waste it for someone who’s not at all worth it.

  Sincerely,

  Chloe

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