“I Miss You But I’m Busy”

Adi Miguel

February 21, 2017

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  She hugged her and said, “I miss you. Aren’t you missing me?”

  “I’m busy. I have a lot of things to do,” he said while holding a folder.

  “But I miss you every day. I miss you in between work and everything I do. I miss you,” she said in an almost crying voice.

  He was so busy doing all the work he needs to but he managed to answer,

  “No, you don’t.”

  He was accommodating her dramas in between phone calls and contracts to review and papers to sign.

  “I do. But if that’s what you want to believe, it’s okay,” she replied while walking backwards until she’s out of his office.

  She wants to think about what did he mean when he said that she doesn’t miss him. She wants to understand about why he can’t give time for her. Or why can’t he snatch a little time to hug her and tell her that he misses him? That’s what all she needs that day–his attention. A little break from all that he’s doing to be affectionate to her.

  She wants to think and check herself too. But she has a lot of things to do. She has a lot of things in her hands. She just snatched a little time from her break to pass by in his office to check how he was and to tell him that she misses him a lot. She wants to think about these things that makes them unattached from each other. But she has so much to do, she can’t accommodate that thought at the moment. Maybe later, maybe tomorrow, or while on break. She has to schedule it. She knows that she has to deal with it but not now, not today. But she will, she promise.

  On contrary, he wants her there. He wants to hug her back and take all the drama that she has. He wants to spend time with her. But he doesn’t want to snatch minutes from break just to see her. He doesn’t want to only hug her when she has time. He doesn’t want to kiss her cheeks when she’s available. He wants to latch on her twice, thrice, four, or five times a day. He wants her arms around his neck just like before when she’s not yet busy, when her hands were not yet full. But now, she’s just there when she can. She’s just there if she remembers that she has to be there for him. And now that he’s doing a lot of things that’s when “I miss you” comes. He misses her every single minute of every day. But if he’ll keep on waiting for her to come by for a minute of hug, he’s wasting his time. He has to do something to keep him busy. He has to do something to keep him away from thinking about her. Just like her, he knows that he has to face this but not now but he will. Just not now.

  Now, they’re both on the same page. All of their hands are full and no one wants to let go of the other hand for a minute of hug. No one wants to empty their offices for a kiss on the cheek. No one wants to give way.

  When your hands are full and your responsibility list is growing, when your meetings are more than the dinner dates you have attended, when your phone calls are exceeding than the “I love you” you have given away, is it really still fine to stay in a relationship?

  When you can’t excuse yourself anymore just to give a text message everyday to the person you love, when your time is not enough for another movie treat on a Friday night, when you’re so occupied with work, dreams, and the career that you have, is it still worth it to fight for the love that you have? Or is it time to let go?

  The things is, sometimes, we’re so busy reaching our goals, we forget to reach the person we love. We’re so into our dreams but not really into our love. Are we still deserving of all the patience, all the waiting, and the understanding? Are we still deserving? Or they are just investing on the person.

  Love surpasses time, distance, and even heavy work load. How willing are you to surpass them? Is it really all for love?

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