To My Not-So-Baby Brother… And The 6 Little Things That I Want You To Know

Adi Miguel

August 30, 2016

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  1. I want you to know that even if we fight almost every day, this life won’t really be worth it if you didn’t come. I always see you as my first answered prayer. The moment mama told me that God can give whatever we want, I tried by asking Him to give me a baby brother. And after some time of waiting, you came. But I didn’t know that also meant giving way for you. I didn’t know that it also meant losing in Mario Brothers even if I picked the strongest character. I didn’t know that having you means learning how to make a bottle of milk. I didn’t know that having you means competition for mama and papa’s attention. I didn’t know that having you means patience, love, dreams, promises, best friends, and getting out of budget. I didn’t know that having you is having a lifetime partner in crime. And with all these things, I am forever grateful for having you.

  2. Remember when we were given each a fried chicken. I told you, “mas masarap ‘to” while handing you the smallest piece there was. Well, guess what? I just want the bigger chicken that’s why I deceived you that the smaller chicken was more masarap. All siblings went through that stage. But that made me realize that on some days you were really that giving like an innocent kid. You’re choosing less, you’re choosing the second best because you think of me and the things that I want.

  3. You are my favorite guy. Even if I’ll be married soon or have my own baby boys, do not forget that you’ll always be above them. You’ll always be my standard. I would always tell my kids the games we played, the things we laugh about, or even cry for. I’ll tell how time, age gap, distance, and technology made us best of friends and how we survived it. I’ll tell them how we protect each other so that they would also protect their siblings. I’ll tell them how we enjoy eating together and our little talks about life and our dreams so that when they grow up they won’t forget to dream with their siblings. You’ll always be the reason why I adore Star Wars, guitars, and basketball.

  4. Back track to your memory, did you remember when I showed mama my test papers with high grades? Well, the test papers are not complete. The ones with low grades were hidden in my bag. Because I know that when you show her your test papers your grades are better than mine. Hahahaha! How competitive can I get? But whatever I do, I won’t really be like you. And I am forever proud of you. You and your math-filled brain. You and your geeky thoughts. You and your medals. You and how your friends love you. I am proud of how this life honed you. I am so proud of you have become. You’re no longer my baby to cuddle every night, or to assist before I go to school. I am proud that you can carry yourself now with integrity. I am proud of how you respect other people and their status in life. I am proud how humble and obedient you are to mama and papa. Who you are today gives me the comfort that you can handle the life to come. Way to go, baby brother.

  5. No girl will ever be perfect in my eyes for you. Even if she exceeds my achievements in life and the love that I have given for you, she will never be enough. But that doesn’t mean that I won’t love her. Because loving her is loving you. Even if you see her prettier than mama and I, even if you get to spend more time with her now, even if your photos on Facebook is with her now, it’s okay. We’re just feeling the sepanx. But we have anticipated this. It’s your choice now. We’re over the years that we’re pairing you to a chubby girl in your kindergarten school and you totally have no idea about it. We’re over the days that if ever she pushes you, we’ll talk to her parents and tell them that their daughter hurt our boy. Because now, when you get hurt, the least thing that we can do is to be there for you. To listen to your rants and breaking heart. My little boy, always remember that love will hurt you a million times yet it’s the best feeling in the world. Don’t get tired of loving. And remember that if one day you’ll get hurt, it doesn’t give you the permission to hurt back. I am comforted by the fact that we grew up in love from our family.

  6. Be better than who I am today. I believe in you. Even if you always tell that I am better on so many things, at the back of my mind, I know that you’ll be grander than I am. I know that you’ll be wherever your heart wants. I believe in you.

  Always,

  Ate

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