If you’re not meant to be there, just leave

March 5, 2019

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  Been living with my husband for over 15 years, under one roof but different rooms. It’s a long story. To cut it short, I stayed for the love of my kids. But this story is not about that. It’s about a guy I get to see again after 30 years. High school classmate. It all started when he waved “hi” on messenger and claimed it was sent by mistake. Then we started chatting. Next, he was already calling and admittedly, that one (1) hour phone call took it to the next level. I kinda like him. A week after, I found myself hanging out with him in a bar nearby. Well, just for a drink. Clean fun. Chit-chats, reminisce, and he even took me home. He’s married and got beautiful kids. I started stalking his Facebook account and looking at the photos, I can tell how beautiful his family is. Picture perfect. In one post, he posted something on their wedding anniversary and that triggered me to stay away from him, forever! “My wife, my best friend, my everything…. I could not ask for more. XXX years of wedding bliss.” It only proves that no matter how much a man loves his partner, they tend to play and look for adventures. I must admit that in a span of three (3) weeks, I fell and I just can’t explain why. Though it’s a painful decision, I unfriended him on Facebook after sending this to him via PM:

  “Thanks for the time, for the friendship, though I don’t need much right now. Thanks for inspiring me to seek professional help regarding my 15-year struggle. Will do that. Thanks for showing me what a beautiful family you have. Yes, I stalked. I envy you. I envy your wife. The photos I saw made me realize I should stay away from you, forever. Excuse my naughtiness. Believe me, it wasn’t intentional! I regret having done that. I should have behaved and acted accordingly. It could have been a start of gaining a new friend, but things didn’t turn out the way it should. I was starting to feel something beyond friendship. And I knew it was WRONG. How did it happen? I honestly don’t know. I just can’t explain. I hate you for initiating the call. I shouldn’t have answered. I hate you for asking me out for a drink. I should’ve stayed home. But I hate myself for giving in. Nevertheless, it was a clean fun. Nothing to worry and nothing to be ashamed of. You were always right. I tend to over think. You were there as a friend, I took it differently. Next thing I knew, I have fallen. Thanks for being there from February X to XX. Yes, you waved hello February X and bid goodbye February XX. Bitter sweet. Here’s my only request…. please get out of my life. You are doing me a huge favor if you do that. Please DO. THANK YOU!”

  May I request you to please play any of these songs I mentioned to him during the time we were “playing around.”

  When I Met You by APO

  Afraid For Love To Fade by Jose Mari Chan.

  Those songs will remind that in my 15-year struggle, I was given the pleasure to be happy ‘temporarily.’ I simply didn’t want to ruin such a happy family. I could have played the game, but I chose not to. Thank GOD for guiding me.

  Miss G

  Hi Miss G!!
  Oh yes, men are men, and boys will be boys. But you, you are not a girl, but you’re a woman. And a woman in her right mind will do exactly what you did. So congratulations for not allowing yourself to fall deep that you’d find it hard to get up again.

  God bless you and the works of your hands and guide you always.

  

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