From High School Love To My Forever Love

Adi Miguel

November 15, 2016

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  High school love has never been real until I saw her on my feed 10 years after.

  10 years in the making. I don’t know how God conspired with the universe so that my stars and her stars can form a good constellation. I’ve seen a lot of connected stars and all of them amazed me. But so far, our constellation is our favorite.

  Someone once said, “when you know it, you know it.” And that day, as I was scrolling up and down on Facebook, I ran through her photo. Seeing her face was like love at first sight. It’s as if it was my first time to see her. But nothing was really new, she looked the same–that pretty girl in our school. She has always been the crowd’s favorite. Everyone loves it when she sings. Every guy then would line up just to dance with her on our prom nights. She’s the girl that girls envy and guys dream of; a total package.

  I never had the chance to talk to her even once. I can’t even find the courage to say ‘hello’ on random days. But when I saw her on my Facebook feed after 10 years, I felt like Superman. I had all the courage I need to say ‘hi’ on a personal message. It’s like I saved up courage for 10 whole years! And now, it’s the day, I shouldn’t miss this chance to just say ‘hi’ whether it will go somewhere or not. At least, I’ve done it.

  She’s still the crush ng bayan that I knew–very pleasant, beautiful, and simple girl from our high school. Her kind heart and simplicity radiates from our Facebook conversation. It was weird, but I felt like I’m in high school again even if I’m at the age of settlement already.

  That #PBBTeens they say, it was real even if your age shouldn’t be on that level already. I find myself smiling when I see her name in my inbox. The kilig whenever I see her on the screen of my phone during video calls, it’s intense. The butterflies on my tummy before we see each other were more than a hundred butterflies. Everything was so high school. I never thought that I’ll have to go through this kind of love again to the same person I wished I had then. Time travel feels.

  The universe always has its own time, own orbit, own ways on how lovers will cross paths or cross paths again.

  It pays to wait. It pays to pray. It pays to enjoy your life alone. Because one day, when you are not ready, when you are doing random things, when you are just doing the usual routines of your life, love comes. It really comes when you least expect that it will. It comes on moments when you don’t find that you need it. It comes when you are just sitting in your office browsing Facebook. It comes when you just had coffee after lunch. It comes when it needs to. And when it knocks on your door, let it freely come. And if it has to go, know that another love will knock on a random day again that you are not expecting it. When another love comes, whether it’s the least kind of love you thought of, you know if it’ll stay. How? You’ll just know it. Trust me. Mine was 10 years in the making.

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