Our Love Is Just A Dream

Adi Miguel

August 16, 2016

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  I dreamed a dream last night and you were there. And it felt real. Until now that I’m telling you this it feels so real.

  I dreamed of you staring at me as we lay down under a star-filled sky. I dreamed of you touching the strands of my hair just like what you do when you comfort me. And you tell me how pretty I am despite all the work load I have and despite how stressful the days are. But in my dream, I’m not doing anything. I am not tired nor stressed. It’s just like a random night with you. A night that I’d always want us to have.

  You were telling me to rest and sleep. So I turned my body closer to you and your arms were strong enough to wrap it around me. My head was in your chest and I can hear your heart beat. I can hear you breathe. I wrapped my arms around your belly like what I always do when I hug you. But in my dream my hug was tighter. And I whispered, “hug me,” and you did. Your both arms were all over me. It felt like you’re my blanket. And if you are a blanket I don’t want to let go of being wrapped by you forever.

  Nothing’s really too extraordinary in my dream. It’s just you and me literally sleeping together and hugging. Because when my eyes see the morning sun or get a sheer of reality, I knew that it won’t really happen. I know we’re just stuck in this drama that we both made. We’re just stuck in the “hugot lines” that we play. I am stuck with my playful feelings that are becoming real.

  And you’re clueless every day. Every single day. So clueless that you don’t know how my heart skips a beat when you pull me closer to hug you. You’re so clueless that you wake up the butterflies in my tummy when you kiss me on the cheeks.

  But I wonder, are you really clueless on what I feel?

  How can we be so comfortable kissing, hugging, touching, and knowing that we don’t own any thing from each other at all? How can it be so easy for us to be all over each other but we know that we’ll never ever end up together? Well, unless you choose to. How can we be everything that we want to have but we’re not together? How can we be so honest about how we feel for each other and know that words are just words until you act them out?

  Maybe it’s always like that. There are people who are meant to cross paths but not really meant to stay together. And maybe we’re one of them.

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  Because no matter how many times I try to go back to sleep, you and I won’t be real. And even if there’s a fairy godmother who will rescue me and bring me closer to you, the clock will still strike at 12 midnight.

  Isn’t it weird that the things we cherish the most are the things that doesn’t really stay long? Maybe it’s not always that odds are in our favor. Just like you and me.
  Just when we thought that our puzzle pieces fit perfectly and that you and I are meant to be…the universe has a tap on our shoulders to say, “this is not for eternity.”

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