The Most Painful “Goodbye” Is When You’re In A Long Distance Relationship

Patricia Malana

April 26, 2016

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  It’s Friday and my one week vacation with his loving family is over.

  It’s 2:30 in the morning and I have to get ready for my 6:55A.M flight. While I was in the shower, trying my best not to cry, I’m thinking of how am I going to say goodbye to his family and to him. I never wanted to go home, but I have to. Everything about the trip was great while it lasted. But of course, I have to face reality.

  Before our planned vacation with his family, he told me about his plan of moving to his parent’s place for good, which is hundred miles away from me and where we had our peaceful vacation. Long distance relationship was never a thing for a clingy girl like me. But of course, I have to support whatever that will make him happy, because that is love, supporting and understanding your partner even though it cuts you into million pieces. Plus, when you really care about someone, their happiness matters more than yours.

  It’s 3:30A.M and I have to go to the airport. I said goodbye to his mother; she hugged me so tight and kissed me on the cheek. I almost cried when she told me “I love you.” But yeah, I don’t want her to see me cry.

  He drove me to the airport with his dad and little brother. I was totally holding back my tears while holding his small face towel (with his name stitched on it) so tight, because I don’t want to burst inside the car knowing that he’s driving.

  Before I go inside the airport, he hugged me so tight and kissed me on my cheeks, forehead and lips. It felt like the entire world has stopped and the only thing I heard was when he told me how much he loves me and that it will always be me and him. It was like a part of a movie where everything moves in slow motion with matching heartbreaking background music.

  I immediately went inside the airport to have my luggage scanned. Before getting my boarding pass, I left my bags inside and asked the security guard if I could go out for a minute. When the guard said yes, I immediately run outside just to see him before I leave.

  The moment I hugged him for the last time, I couldn’t help but to burst out and cry like a kid. His voice started cracking like he was also about to cry, as he tells me that everything will be okay and we will see each other really soon. I couldn’t stop crying as I walked away and went to the departure area. I looked back and saw him waving goodbye.

  I’ve never felt so sad in my entire life. I couldn’t stop crying inside the airport, inside the airplane and even when I got home, inside my room. That was the most painful goodbye ever.

  I never imagined myself in a long distance relationship and now, here I am, waiting for a couple of months just to see him again. It hurts so much but it’s okay. God has a plan. I know that everything will get better and I also know that day by day, I am close to seeing him again.

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